Ryan MacFarland - "Tragic Love"

This is a story about a boy and a girl.
A love story ended in tragedy,
The girl was his world.
They fell inlove toghether,
Felt it was real.
The boy wanted her forever,
He woulda sealed the deal.
They spent 9 months toghether,
The best of his life.
He hoped one day she would be his wife
She made him feel so good,
He forgot about drugs and weed.
He felt happy enough,
He enough love to feed.
He didnt need that shit,
He was happy inside.
He had a girl that was down to ride.
But later shit got complicated as rumors began to slide.
He begged her not to believe them,
To stay on his side.
Rumors of her spread too and he tryed to trust her,
Ready to kill anyone that ever dared to cuss her.
There love was an addiction,
Kept growing like cocain.
He hope it would always be the same.
Till one day she said she wanted a brake.
He never saw it comming,
It peirced his heart like a stake.
He began questioning the love they had.
He asked her if she really loved him,
And the question made her sad.
She said the stress was too much to have in her life.
Her words cut into him,
Filled him with pain and strife
But he waited for her through the pain and she returned.
But scar had not callised,
It still burned.
He was afraid to get hurt again,
So he held back.
It wasn't the same as before,
And that was a fact.
They couldn't connect anymore,
She blocked him out.
They kept argueing,
Shit they shouldn't have cared about.
The trust they had seemed gone.
Later he realized he shoulda trusted her he was wrong.
One day he asked why she couldn't connect,
She responded i don't know yet,
So he kept trying to Disect.
She told him she didn't want a relationship anymore.
He was mangled, bruised, and kicked out the door.
She told him she wanted other people,
But she said that wasn't the reason.
His miserable dish was served,
And those words where seasonin.
He told her he wanted her back a week later,
He told her he couldn't live without dating her.
She said she didn't know,
She needed her space.
His freinds felt his suffering by the look on his face.
She said she wanted to hook up but she still loved him.
His thoughts of her with others made his heart dim.
Soon he told her what she was doing killed him inside,
That apart of him had rolled over and died.
She knew what she was doing,
Yet she did it anyway.
How could she do this to the one she loves?
Was his thought everyday.
Suicide began to creep into his brain.
They tried talk but it just wasn't the same.
What she had done to him made him insane.
But he tried to wait it out,
To stand agianst the rain.
He began drinking so much,
But it was all in vain.
Even being an alcoholic couldn't drive her from his brain.
He usta pick up the knife,
And wonder if he could do it.
All the pain that would go away,
If he would use it.
But he thought about her,
And he stayed strong.
But it seemed like life just couldn't go on.
He started Abusing more drugs,
Anything to feel ok.
But it didnt work,
He still felt the same way.
Till one day his parents and freinds said they where conserned.
He hated love for all this shit he learned.
They where afraid he'd hurt himself,
And they where right.
A few more days,
And he just might.
He realized he wasnt as important to her anymore,
If he was why would she throw his heart to the floor.
He eventually worked up courage to ask,
What was more important to her,
Him or the rest.
She said she didn't care what was more important,
She was too younge.
And just like that,
The boys bell rung.
He hadda get away from the pain and her,
But not just for him.
He was causing her pain too,
He wasn't stupid or dim.
But he wasn't what she wanted right now in her life.
He asked the girl that he once wanted as a wife,
To decide to be with him,
Or he was gone for good.
It was for her too,
He wasn't even sure if could.
She decided without actually choosing.
For once he thought about others,
Even though he loved what he was loosing.
So to forget all the pain he siad they couldnt talk.
She till tried to him,
And he said if she did she'd be blocked.
She took it as an insult but didn't realize,
All the pain he felt in saying it,
It was evident in his eyes.
But he was so determind to let her go and be happy,
He remebered all the lovey shit he said,
That she thought was sappy.
Maybe she didn't know or even care,
But it was all true.
He ment it everytime he said i love you.
He hadda break them free,
And let her go.
To drive her away,
False hate he showed.
He wanted to get her as far away as he can.
He knew he'd miss her,
Getting over her was never the plan.
To drive her further,
He siad he was over her.
He went with other girls,
Trying to fake and show her.
This was all a lie inside and only his homies knew it.
Drugs and alcohol are the only things that got him threw it.
All attempts to forget her where in vain.
He cryed when he heard he was causing her pain.
But he had to do it,
In the end it would be better.
So i fucking hate you,
Is the lie he said to her.
But he told her he loved her still,
And that wasnt a lie.
He wanted her to flurish,
To leave and fly high.
One day he couldn't fake it anymore,
And he asked to be friends and talk.
She said i fucking hate you,
Im so much better off.
He cryed that night,
And was so depressed.
But he made her happier,
In which he was obessed.
So now he's in pain,
While she feels good.
He's an alcoholic and druggie,
hides behind a sweatshirt hood.
He dosn't give a fuck about anyone no more.
He yells at people,
Calls girls whores.
The reason is all that was good in him he sacrificed.
But he knows inside what he did was right.
People call him a dick,
For the things he said to her.
But they don't know what happened,
They wheren't there for,
All the sacrifice he did to make her free.
Those people make false judgements,
If you ask me.
She hates him now.
And he sits down and wonders how,
He will ever move on without her love.
Their love flew so high,
Till someone shot down the dove.
He usta stand against the rain,
But now he must swim.
Maybe someday she'll see the sacrifice,
When she thinks of him.
She was his first and only love,
For her he died.
Not physically,
But he gone so much inside.
He's not the same kid,
He don't give a fuck.
He dosn't care what happens,
Or how bad his life sucks.
He sacrificed everything that made him whole.
Cause making her happy was always his main goal.
He is sorry he hadda lie to do it.
She'll never realize the sacrifice he made threw it.
Maybe it's better she don't know at all.
That way she can stay happy,
And not answer pains call.
She may never know what such a big thing he did.
Maybe he'll name after her,
When he has kids.
He still wishes her the absolute best,
Cuase he knows he'll still love her more than all the rest.
If she ever reads this,
I still love you girl.
I always have,
For you i gave up my world.
The heart ache and pain will never go away.
Thinking about what i did for you that day.
Now that you people know,
Now feel free to judge me.
Sometimes i wonder if she still loves me.
Maybe someday you can tell her for me,
And it'll show her.
Now you know why i get pissed,
When you say i fucked her over.
If you read this girl i really hope your doing good.
If you ask me if I'd do it again to see you happy,
The answer is i would.

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